As usual, a torrent of crippling fears ran through Leigh's bones like bolts of lightning as she watched the red flag, stone-faced, waiting for it to turn green.           I forget my whole routine.           I'm going to fall on my dismount.           I'm the Linebacker of Gymnastics: way too big to swing around these bars like a petite nothing, like Grace.           Focus!  she reprimanded herself.           She felt like her whole life, every Leigh in every day of her past, was lined up behind her. Every missed sleepover. Every potential friend or girlfriend whom she didn't have time for.

Every lie. Every time she chose to be exceptional instead of normal. It was a series of crushing choices that shoved her up to the space where she stood right now, on the blue mat, under the uneven bars, at the Olympic trials. And it would all be pointless if she fell.           Then the flag turned green, and the storm inside her  poof ed away. A smile lit up her face, and she threw her hands over her head to salute the judges before popping immediately onto the high bar.           Her brain turned off. It was only her body on the bars.

Through every giant, every release, every transition, she was That Girl. The Other Leigh. The one who was national champion. The one who could fall every day in practice but would never let the bar slip out of her grasp in a meet. The one who smiled even as she held her breath through handstands and pirouettes atop the high bar, whose toes pointed without her telling them to, whose knees would never bend, the one who would never break.           Ninety seconds later, with a double twisting backward layout, her feet were on the mat, her hands over her head. She was That Girl again.