poem I wrote after I told you I was empathetic I go to the CVS on 14th & 8th and you've asked me not to contact you anymore one time you were having a smoothie like it was 1998 and there was nothing I could do about it your jawline is so perfect that I cannot stop telling you to kill me even though you said please stop asking me to kill you a leaf just fell outside my window remember when I tripped on the dance floor and that guy who always talked about Ibiza called me a fat whore? I should have said I'm a leaf I'm a leaf like I was in a play like I was in something bigger than my body I can't tell if my therapist is cool or just has short bangs poem I wrote after I tried to write a tweet about sparkling water I've got a disease where I haven't watched an entire feature film since the aughts do you like how I said "aughts"? you don't see that every day! I've never been to a sex party but one time I made fun of this girl for bringing deviled eggs to an event and then I ate six of them. humiliation, satisfaction, a long walk home in spring. I love sex and I love before it-- the double vodka soda leg touch Is it possible to miss everything at once? poem I wrote after I had the strangest urge to confide in dear friends beneath starlight I just took a pregnancy test to feel alive and all I got was piss on my hands I don't think I'd take my daughter to get her nails done if I were a mother she can do that with her friends if she wants I'd like to have kids at 35 so I can start wearing graceful linen sacks and calling everyone "darling" I'd like to wear lipstick and lean on a built-in bookcase and tell you I like Helen Frankenthalther and did you know that's her painting on the Renata Adler novel I told you to read the one I never finished because I needed to have sex with someone who lived on the Upper West Side can you grab some ice? I like ice in my wine.