The story of a mother grieving the sudden loss of her twenty-one-year-old child - from the award-winning and bestselling memoirist of Don't Let's Go to the Dogs Tonight 'Truly extraordinary' HELEN MACDONALD 'A mesmeric celebration. Will help others surviving loss - surviving life ' NEW YORK TIMES It's midsummer in Wyoming and Alexandra Fuller is barely hanging on. Grieving her father and pining for her home country of Zimbabwe, reeling from a midlife breakup, freshly sober and piecing her way uncertainly through a volatile new relationship with a younger woman, Alexandra vows to get herself back on even keel. And then - suddenly and incomprehensibly - her son Fi, at twenty-one years old, dies in his sleep. From a sheep wagon deep in the mountains of Wyoming to a grief sanctuary in New Mexico to a silent meditation retreat in Alberta, Canada, Alexandra embarks on a journey up and down the spine of the Rocky Mountains trying to find out how to grieve herself whole. 'For anyone who's ever loved and lost, or ever will; in short, a book for us all ' OPRAH DAILY 'A profound and gripping memoir about surviving unexpected, devastating loss' SUNDAY TIMES ' Profound and defiantly enthralling ' WASHINGTON POST * A Book of the Year for the New York Times , Washington Post and Time *.