This book documents Roger's extraordinary life's journey through the sources of his addictions, and how they played an integral part in his life experiences. These are detailed in his spiritual quest to understand his being in this life. His quest takes him through Queer history, symbols, mythology, rituals, and spiritualities. This spiritual quest is further developed through his experiencing AIDS related illnesses and with returning to life after encounters with the Death Crone. These all unfolded through his recovery from these addictions until where he has today peace and serenity, as he never achieved previously.