PART I: To Leave Everything That Is Familiar Prologue: The Way Things Are 1. A Vivid Dream 2. Jewish Karma 3. Please Throw Me a Rope 4. How I Learned to Look Beneath the Surface 5. Freedom Is a Spiritual State 6. Sublimating Spirituality 7. Lech Lecha 8.

The War Between the Two Sides of the Brain 9. Death Recycles into Life 10. The Question Is Not Whether a Teacher Has Real Spiritual Power, but How That Power Is Used 11. Centering 12. Meditation 13. The Gateway 14. Form Is Emptiness 15. Spiritual Pyrotechnics 16.

Dokusan 17. When Peace Breaks Out, the First Thing You Feel Is the Devastation of the War 18. The Need to Belong 19. Emptiness Is Form 20. Compassion 21. They Do Not Appear or Disappear 22. My Naked Heart 23. Healing Presence 24.

Closure 25. Family 26. Wedding 27. Narrative 28. Hold On to Your Hat PART II: God Was in This Place and I Didn't Know It 29. The Funnel 30. The Kaddish 31. Studying Talmud 32.

The Holocaust 33. Prayer 34. Service 35. Why the Messiah Doesn't Come 36. Death 37. Teshuvah 38. The Lineaments of the Divine Encounter 39. Kabbalah 40.

Taking Leave PART III: To Struggle with God Until Your Name Changes 41. The Shem'a 42. Open the Gates 43. Our Divine Name 44. What I Learned from Buddhism About How to Save Judaism 45. How to Look at Your Heart.