Chapter 1 Jo There was a moment in each day where she forgot. It never came at the same time; if it had, perhaps then Jo could have prepared for it. But how could you prepare for forgetting, just for a moment, that what once was a quartet had been reduced to a trio? There was no rhyme or reason to the moments she stumbled. She had found that there was no rhyme or reason to any of this; grief and war, they were intertwined. Bedfellows in the truest sense. The only way to defeat them was the same: battle. But there was no way to win hers. Jo was Sisyphus, rolling that boulder up the hill, only to lose her grip right before she reached the top.
Because there was no way to bring her back. Beth was gone. Not the way Laurie or Father was gone or how Amy was gone. But really, truly gone. It still felt so wrong. Like Jo had tripped into a nightmare she couldn''t wrench herself from. Was that why she forgot? Was her mind simply ill prepared for the new world she''d woken to that terrible day? After, staying home had been unbearable, but she had borne it as long as she could--for Meg''s sake, for Marmee''s, even for Amy''s, though her little sister always seemed to soldier through. But when the attack on Pearl Harbor shocked America, the war that had been knocking at their doors finally burst through in the cruelest, bloodiest way.
Grief had no place in the aftermath (grief made its home in her heart, dug a burrow and set up for good) when action was so badly needed. The March sisters--the broken, out-of-tune trio that was left--had scattered. Meg had stayed with Marmee; the good daughter, who''d never rock the boat too much. Amy had done what she did best: put on a smile and sought a way out and found it. And Jo had run. There was no polite way of putting it, and she wasn''t the most polite in the first place. She wouldn''t lie and deny it to herself, at least. She had run, as far and as fast as she could.
The war effort needed women, capable women who could handle explosives and build planes, with steady hands and a smile on their faces for the newsreels. She would''ve preferred Laurie''s path: a uniform, and a gun in her hands, and a boat overseas and some Nazis to defeat. She''d told him to punch Hitler for her as she straightened the wool lapels of his uniform before he shipped out. He''d let out a laugh, but it hadn''t reached his eyes. He''d been so upset with her, still, but there had been nothing to do but put the sting of her rejection aside. There were much more important things now. He had shipped out, and she thought she might die, because she may not have loved him the way he wanted, but she did love him--more fiercely than anyone but her sisters and her parents. Jo had never been one to give her love lightly, and now so many pieces of her were missing.
Laurie hadn''t taken her heart, but part of her laughter, her joy, her mischief and adventure, for that was what she thought of when she thought of him. And all she could do was run from her sisters, from her grieving mother who had thrown herself into distraction after distraction, from the memory of her father''s hand cupping her cheek as he said goodbye. From Beth, in that bed, so, so pale and still. Was it any wonder that Jo lived for those moments she forgot Beth was gone? She craved them like a drunk craved whiskey. But the crash of remembering: that was worse than the shakes the men too far gone got when they didn''t just want drink but needed it. Even the sweet things had their bitterness these days: A kiss witnessed on the street could be the last. A love letter sent could end up being unread. A knock at the door and two soldiers outside could destroy an entire family.
We regret to inform you . They all knew the words now. The girls on the line didn''t dare even speak them, like it''d conjure up a curse. But when the news of someone''s husband or father or brother rippled through the factory, it was what ran through everyone''s minds. Those words, that telegram. We regret to inform you . Jo turned over on her narrow mattress, checking the clock on the rickety table that held her lamp and the stack of Life magazines she''d borrowed from Anna, two doors down. It was still dark out--not even five yet.
The boardinghouse should be quiet, yet she heard the unmistakable click of oxfords in the hallway. Mrs. Wilson, who owned the boardinghouse, liked to say that wood floors kept her girls from getting up to no good. Mrs. Wilson hadn''t figured out they''d all just learned how to tiptoe. Some new girl hadn''t gotten the message. Six weeks ago, Jo had been the new girl, the rules of the boardinghouse a mystery to her. But she''d grown up in a house full of women: she knew to stake out her territory .
and how. Soon enough, she''d be ruling the roost. She pulled on her robe--plaid and stitched with love by Meg, something that used to make her feel warm, inside and out, and now just made her feel guilty and mad, still so damned mad at her--and padded across the creaky floors of her room. Swinging open her door, she expected to catch Anna or Evelyn, or maybe even Molly, who liked to play at being a good girl but who all the girls knew was up to something with the late nights she kept. Secrets were hard to keep in the boardinghouse, almost as hard as keeping quiet. But the early-morning visitor was doing nothing to muffle her steps or the thump of her suitcase as she set it down in front of the door across from Jo''s. Her back was to her, red curls that couldn''t be called anything but unkempt swaying, as she tried to get the door to open. Jo could hardly blame her for not keeping up her hair--in these parts, women kept their hair tucked safely under cotton turbans more often than it was styled into pageboys and pin curls.
"I thought the rookies were coming in on Wednesday," Jo said, her voice hushed in the silence that came before the din that seemed to hum over the boardinghouse at most hours. Instead of startling like Jo half expected the girl to do, she just cast a look over her shoulder. "Oh, doll," she said. "If you think I''m fresh meat, you''ve got to be new. I''m just back from my stint in Texas, training the new batch of WASPs." Jo had a feeling she wasn''t talking about the insects, but she wasn''t about to ask. The world was full of new words, acronyms, and slang she had never learned and was still trying to. She hated feeling out of the know, and suddenly she was wishing she hadn''t been so eager for distraction she''d flung her door open or spoken at all.
"I''m Peg," said the girl--woman, really--pressing a hand against the breast of her practical navy gabardine jacket. "You must be the Jo that Mrs. Wilson mentioned when I called. She had to move me to this room because you have my old one." "Are you the one who rigged the window with the corkscrew so it''d close properly?" A smile crept across Peg''s face. "That was me. I''m also the gal to come to if the hot water''s coming out in drips. Me and that rickety hot-water heater have a special bond.
" "The girls''ll be glad to have you back, then. We haven''t had more than five minutes'' worth of hot water for weeks." "I arrived just in time." "Are you working the line?" Jo asked. Peg''s smile widened. "I don''t make the planes. I fly them." "You''re a pilot?" "I am.
" Jo had heard of them: the aviatrixes that had been trained to fly the planes she and the other girls built. They ferried them from the factory to the air bases mostly, but there were murmurs that some did more. Secret missions. Flygirls towing targets for the boys'' anti-artillery training. The kind of flying and danger that could get a girl killed. That may already have gotten girls killed. Once, the thought of that kind of adventure might''ve thrilled her, but now, all Jo could think of was the loss. Most of the girls who lived at the boardinghouse worked at the factory with her, with a few exceptions.
But there were other working women streaming in and out of the boardinghouses across the state and the country: girls working in offices, in factories of all kinds, not just munitions and aircraft--plus the girls who stayed at home to take over farming, or teaching like Meg. Everyone had been thrust into new worlds, but Jo felt like she was the only one unmoored from the shift. Surely that couldn''t be true. "Peg!" A squeal broke out. "You''re back!" Anna came flying out of her room, throwing her arms around Peg. "I want to hear absolutely everything about Texas." Inside her room, Jo''s alarm went off and she retreated as Anna''s excited voice rose and, through the hall, muffled clanging--the other girls'' alarms--began. The silence of the morning was broken: it was time to come alive.
Jo closed her door and pressed her back against it for a moment, letting the alarm run to an abrupt halt, the echo hanging there. The murmur of voices in the hall, the rush of water down the way, the giggles and yawns: it was like every morning of her childhood, just more. Mornings always reminded her the most of what she''d left behind. The girls joked about it: Jo needs a cup of joe in the morning, or she''s a bear. They all had their quirks: Anna spent much too long on her hair, and Evelyn tracked in mud wherever she went, because that girl preferred spending time in the Victory Gardens over spending time with people. Jo was grumpy in the morning, and Molly was just plain secretive. Mrs. Wilson looked over them all, extending her benevolent sternness like a qu.