A biographic account of former alcohol and gambling addict who was diagnosed to be bipolar late in life; this book is a bitter-sweet story of self-medication, insomnia, and recovery. "Anything you read thereon may or may not have happened. What was in the past is never real. I firmly hold a belief (Advaita Vedanta) that life is an illusion, mind made thus subjective based on memories and often projections of the brain. Names and characters in this book, if resemble real-life people (if there is such a thing) that is only a coincidence. " (author).