Chapter 1 Lottie Every kid has a moment in their childhood when they realize just how terrifying the world can be. A moment when they realize there are far scarier things out there than bigfoot and bogeymen and monsters hiding under beds. For my grandparents'' generation, it was pretty much the entirety of World War II. For my parents, it was the Cold War. For my friend Shannon, it was the unconscionable existence of the Teletubbies. For me, it was when a girl from my hometown died in the North Tower murders at Carvell Academy of the Arts. Nineteen-year-old Janie Kirsopp was a quietly intelligent violinist in her first year at Carvell. Her parents had driven her the hundreds of miles from Sevenoaks, our small town just south of London, to rural Northumberland, said tearful goodbyes to their shy, uncertain daughter, and promised they''d have the best Christmas ever to make up for their time apart.

Janie had begged them to take her home, said she''d made a mistake and that she didn''t want to be so far away from them, that she''d request a transfer to one of the elite music programs in London instead. They had kissed her on the forehead and told her to stick it out for a couple of months and see how she felt then. But in a couple of months, Janie was dead. I was only nine when it happened, but I remember how her pretty, hooknosed face had dominated newsstands across Sevenoaks. Photos of Janie on holiday in Spain as a child, of her toothless first school picture, of her performing at the Royal Albert Hall with the National Youth Orchestra. Splashy headlines about hot new leads in the case, about prime suspects and grisly forensic evidence. The notion of murder was completely abstract to me until I saw my own parents crying at her funeral. They knew the Kirsopps from church and had attended Janie''s christening when she was a baby.

They could still remember her white tulle dress, her ivory sandals the size of seashells, her shining, cherubic eyes as she was baptized. And now her body had been shattered at the bottom of a cold stone tower hundreds of miles away. That was my before and after. I was just a child, yet my understanding of reality shifted on its axis. Janie''s death was the second in a string of four unsolved murders that ultimately led to Carvell''s closure. So my parents understandably had reservations when I announced, less than a decade later, that the soon-to-be-reopened arts academy would be my first choice of university. Well, "reservations" is putting it mildly. My mother threatened to saw my legs off if I so much as mentioned it again.

At first they thought I was messing with them, playing the kind of cruel joke only teenagers have the genuine apathy to execute. Then, when I was invited to interview at the academy, they flatly refused to drive me up. I''d always been stubborn, so I caught three different trains until I was within throwing distance of the campus, then got a taxi to take me the rest of the way. A shiver had run down my spine as Carvell Academy came into view at the end of the sweeping driveway, the spires and crenelations of the North Tower silhouetted against a gray autumn sky. There was something so alive about the old convent, something that swooped and pulsed like a murmuration of starlings. I''d always romanticized the university, despite its history; it brought to mind old parchment and knee-deep piles of crunchy red leaves, cellos and dark windowpanes and snow. The thing that made me fall truly in love with the campus, swiftly and irrevocably, was the cat. There were rumors that Salem, a sleek black Bombay known to have wandered around the campus before the school''s closure, was actually immortal; her soul was said to be the same as it was hundreds of years ago, back when the convent was still operating.

The tour guide told us that Salem stalked the same route around the priory every day, visited the same glade every afternoon to bathe on the trees'' sun-dappled branches and curled up in front of the log fire every evening after a little nip of brandy and milk. When I saw her slinking along a window ledge of the chapel on my campus tour, I felt as though I was witnessing something ancient and sacred, something tapped into a supernatural pulse. I wanted to be part of that more than anything. Be careful what you wish for, as my beloved Goosebumps books used to say. Now I could practically feel Dad''s apprehension as we pulled up that same sweeping driveway on my first day as a Carvell student. He gripped the stitched-leather steering wheel so tightly that his knuckles turned white. I knew he was thinking of Janie--tulle dress, tiny sandals, cherubic face, dead body. I knew he was thinking of how he would never survive if that was me.

I knew he was wondering if it was too late to fetch my mum''s hacksaw. After I was offered a place, my parents eventually came around to the idea of me attending Carvell. They weren''t happy about it, exactly, but they didn''t expressly forbid it. Despite its ten-year closure, Carvell still offered one of the most prestigious and competitive English literature programs in the country, with published authors and internationally acclaimed academics among the glittering new faculty. Before the closure, there was one eccentric lecturer--Professor Sanderson--who taught a gothic literature seminar that was rumored to send students mad. I didn''t tell Mum and Dad about that one. Especially since most of the original professors were set to return this fall. Plus, the nightlife was practically nonexistent--there was just one student union and a couple of old-fashioned parlors on the campus--so the chances of me choking on my own vomit or drowning in a river after a night of partying were slim.

The field hockey scholarship sealed the deal. I was the star midfielder throughout high school, and my love of sports was secondary only to my love of books--Carvell offered me both. Still, now that we were actually here, traipsing around Willowood Hall in search of my room, I could tell Dad was having second, third and ninth thoughts. "Are you sure about this, kiddo?" he asked, lugging a box of books. He looked up at the North Tower, squinting against the late-summer sun, teeth working at the corner of his mouth like they always did when he was nervous. He''d worked in construction for decades, so he was no stranger to physical risk, but it was different when it came to me. He couldn''t even stomach watching me play field hockey. So leaving me at the site of Janie''s death on the day of my nineteenth birthday--the same age she was when she died--was a little too much for him to handle.

I grinned, hoisting my field hockey bag farther up my shoulder. "Of course I''m sure, you goof." In truth I was nervous too, but I didn''t want to show it. The apprehension wasn''t just about the school''s bloody past, or what would happen if old demons came back to haunt it. I was also afraid that I would fail under the lofty academic pressure. Because the reality was that I''d lived in the same small house in the same small town all my life. What if I didn''t rise to whatever challenges were in store for me at Carvell? What if I was only a great field hockey player--and a great writer--in the small world of Sevenoaks? I was about to find out. Fixing a confident expression on my face, I gave my dad a final reassuring beam and took a step in what I hoped was the direction of my dorm.

Chapter 2 Alice Within fifteen minutes of arriving at Carvell, I already wanted to slit someone''s throat. The tweed-clad woman in front of me glared at her clipboard as though it had personally wronged her. "Name?" I shifted on the heels of my Doc Martens. They squeaked conspicuously on the checkerboard floor of the cavernous entrance hall. "Alice Wolfe. Philosophy." Judging by the woman''s disdainful expression, I got the feeling she''d been roped into these tedious welcome greetings in the absence of any student volunteers. Which made sense, because I was one of the first students to walk through the doors in nearly ten years.

Her watery blue eyes scanned a list. "You''re not on here. Did you submit your enrollment paperwork before the deadline?" Through gritted teeth, I replied, "Yes." She gave a terse schoolmarm tut, pushing her half-moon glasses farther up the bridge of her nose. "You mustn''t have, because you''re not on here." Anger snapped across my chest like an elastic band, a hot, familiar sting. I couldn''t keep it from my voice. "Well, I definitely did.

So it must be a cock-up on your end." At this the women inhaled sharply, as though the unsavory word had caused her physical pain. Eyelids fluttering with distaste, she replied quietly, "There''s simply no need to be so rude. I assure you this is no fault of our administrative staff. I''m afraid you''ll have to resubmit your paperwork." I''d spent hours on that godforsaken paperwork the first time. Breathe. Just breathe.

I lowered my voice and said, "I''ve already done the paperwork. Please, would you check again?" She issued a tight grimace. "I''m going to have to ask you to step aside and complete another set of forms. There are a lot more students I have to see." She looked down her nose at me, smug with self-importance, and the dam holding back my anger crumbled. "For fuck''s sake!" I snapped. "Would it kill you to check one more time?" She bli.