A beginning therapist meets a would-be wife murderer -- A man with three penises and two vaginas -- My first three months with Attis -- A childhood injury to a body part that stands for a penis and actualised unconscious fantasy -- Thoughts on personality organisations -- The psychotic core -- Beginning outpatient therapy -- Linking interpretations, a flesh-coloured car, and emotional flooding -- Turkey dinners and identification with a therapeutic libidinal object -- Internalisation-externalisation cycles and the alteration of the psychotic core -- Workable transference -- Satellite state and therapeutic play -- Crucial juncture experiences -- Physical illnesses and psychic freedom -- Sunset.