Foreword Introduction Part One: Elegy (A look back at a rough start as a third culture kid, constantly moving) 1 The Big Six (US, England in the 60' s) 2 The Big Pawpaw (Nigeria, surviving the Biafran War, evacuating to NY) 3 The Big Apple (Bowery, Manhattan 1967, crime, drugs, riots, violence. ) Part Two: Enigma (Growing pains, working through abuse by my missionary dad)4 You Can' t Not Know What You Know (Healing of memories) 5 Taking Out the Trash (Learning to forgive, yielding to God' s ways) Part Three: Epiphany (Trusting God and His Word, discovering direction, purpose)6 The Lighthouse (Key godly influencers along the path) 7 The Lamp (Hidden dynamics of Psalm 119:105, my stumbling steps) 8 Is This a Review? (Mistakes made, learning lessons, told with humor) 9 I' ve Got Him Right Where He Wanted Me (Submitting to God' s plan) Part Four: Enlistment (Results of following God' s design for my life)10 From Broken to Scattered (Broken, humbled and useful; God' s specialty) 11 The Produce Aisle (God causing a harvest, in spite of me) Epilogue (Illustrations of ski flying, broken clay shards converted to Kintsugi) Notes.