Contents Prologue by the Diarist July Week One: Writing the Faith in StoneWeek Two: A Faithfully Anonymous PastorWeek Three: The Pastor's Wife and the MustangWeek Four: Pastoral Care as Déjà Vu August Week One: Saying "I Love You"Week Two: A Sunday with the New York Times Week Three: In-Laws and the Priest ThingWeek Four: The Blessing of Old Faith September Week One: Pastor, Not FriendWeek Two: Beth, Our New Financial PlannerWeek Three: Letting Go of Mac the CustodianWeek Four: Pastoral Lessons from My Sheepdog October Week One: Falling from IllusionsWeek Two: The Pastor's HomeWeek Three: The Grace of Being OrdinaryWeek Four: The StudyWeek Five: "It Hurt My Feelings" November Week One: The Sin I Can't ForgiveWeek Two: Finding Gravitas When You're YoungWeek Three: The Pastor on the Doctor's TableWeek Four: The Pastor's PastorWeek Five: Humility to the End December Week One: Our Faith and My FaithWeek Two: Frantically Preparing for the Prince of PeaceWeek Three: A Young Pastor in Deep WatersWeek Four: A Wedding for the NonbelieverChristmas Eve: Being Joseph in the Pageant January Week One: The Long, Gray Days of MinistryWeek Two: The Obituary WriterWeek Three: The Pastoral Search CommitteeWeek Four Announcing the Retirement 000Week Five: Listening to a Friend February Week One: Making Sense of a Pastor's CancerWeek Two: A Wintry Funeral for Young TeddyWeek Three: The Blessed Church LadyWeek Four: Taking the Heat for God March Week One: The Weary PartisanWeek Two: I Was Done with WordsWeek Three: The Redemption of Early MistakesWeek Four: The Loss of Saturday NightsWeek Five: Call Finds a Way April Week One: Struggling to Say "Behold"Week Two: The Real Problem with Being VisibleWeek Three: Hard Lessons on FlannelgraphWeek Four: Finally Loving Easter May Week One: The Beloved Horse's AssWeek Two: Getting It Wrong with Race and GenderWeek Three: The Adored Director of MusicWeek Four: You're Dead RightWeek Five: Dad, Not Pastor June Week One: Seeking the HolyWeek Two: When I Can No Longer Blame WorkWeek Three: Still Holding Back Part of MeWeek Four: The Last SurpriseEpilogue.