Chapter 1 How Our Bodies Respond to Trauma What brings you to therapy right now? This is a standard question that most therapists ask their prospective new clients. Many of my clients come to me wanting to feel better and recognizing that past trauma is getting in the way. Some clients only want to focus on the here and now and what''s unfolding for them presently. Yet that work never feels as effective or deep. For each of us, there is always more beneath the surface. The trauma we''ve endured grows roots deep into other aspects of our current lives. When I use the word trauma, what exactly do I mean? Trauma is any experience that makes us feel we are in danger-one that leaves a lasting impact on us, shaping our beliefs about ourselves, the world, and our ability to feel safe. Traumatic experiences can vary from a single incident, meaning an event that occurred once, like a sexual assault or a car accident, to ongoing traumas like chronic or prolonged illness, unsafe or abusive childhoods, growing up in a war zone, or living in a society that doesn''t view you or treat you as human.
Jessy came to see me because she was feeling unable to manage her anxiety. As a trans woman, Jessy felt like she was preparing for battle every time she left her apartment. Her heart rate increased, her palms got sweaty: the classic fight-or-flight response, even with her white privilege. When she was on the subway every morning, each time a commuter stared at her or made a transphobic comment, she felt her body surge with hot energy, as if someone had threatened her life. When people refuse to see us as human, it provokes a survival response. When people or systems don''t see our humanity, we are more at risk for both state and interpersonal violence. Jessy''s nervous system picked up on that every second of every day, and it, of course, had long-term effects on her body. In this chapter, I''m going to introduce you to your wildly adaptive nervous system.
Understanding how and why your body makes you feel the way you do is essential to understanding your trauma. Along with Jessy, you''ll learn techniques to feel calm and aware. This is called the stabilization phase of therapy because it is when your body learns to experience just enough safety that it can take the next step in healing-trauma processing. During processing, clients dive directly into their trauma, hopefully in a guided and structured way to help them understand how it impacts them, and then how to make new meaning from those experiences. After processing, belief systems shift, and the body calms down and experiences fewer triggers and flashbacks. This is the integration phase where healing occurs. Trauma processing is intense work, and you can''t process your trauma if you''re not stabilized because doing so will destabilize you further. Jessy needed to get stabilized before she would be ready to explore how her current symptoms connected to childhood and past traumas.
Her first step was to understand what was happening inside her body and how it had adapted to keep her safe. Only then could she begin to develop mechanisms to help herself calm her body''s response. This is what so many of my clients come to therapy seeking: emotion regulation and grounding tools to mitigate triggers and overwhelm. Jessy needed these tools in order to feel safer in the world and in her body, so she could enjoy life and feel less dysregulated every day. Even though the world is truly not a safe place for her, as trans people are four times more likely to be assaulted than cisgender people, she understood that it didn''t serve her to live in total fight-or-flight mode every day, and the toll it was taking on her body wasn''t sustainable. How Our Bodies Keep Us Safe The nervous system is our body''s command center. It controls our thoughts, movements, and reactions to the world around us. There are two main branches of the nervous system: (1) the central nervous system, which consists of the brain and spinal cord, and (2) the peripheral nervous system, a complex system of nerves throughout the body, like the tender veins in a leaf.
Within the peripheral nervous system there are two more branches: the somatic nervous system and the autonomic nervous system. The somatic nervous system controls our voluntary movements. The autonomic nervous system, which we will focus on in this chapter, controls our bodies'' automatic functioning and responses to stimuli. When we experience an unsafe situation or a trigger, it is this system that mobilizes us toward safety, often without our conscious brain knowing that''s what we are doing. In fact, our brain often shuts off our critical thinking so we can focus on getting to safety in these moments. When we are triggered and a survival response is activated, we call this a trauma response. Let''s go through a common scenario. You are at work, on the train, somewhere in public.
You experience a subtle or not-so-subtle act that shows someone does not see or believe in your humanity. Maybe you are misgendered, called a racial slur, or find that the place you need to go is not accessible for your body. Your nervous system interprets this as a threat to your life or sense of self-a trigger of past trauma and discrimination-sending your body into survival mode. Our autonomic nervous system is designed to keep us safe at all costs, so it''s not going to do a lot of evaluating here. Meaning, even if we are actually safe in the moment, our autonomic nervous system is going to jump into action, reacting below our level of consciousness. Our body has two autonomic response options to increase our chances of survival. Option one is the sympathetic nervous system response. Our adrenal glands release the stress hormones adrenaline and cortisol, which are responsible for activating the fight-or-flight or the hyperfreeze (freezing with tons of adrenaline in our body) response.
Our body invests lots of energy in preparing us to move either toward the threat by fighting back, or away from the threat by fleeing-or freezing in place, hoping to not be seen at all. Our hearts race while the adrenaline courses through our bloodstream, and we may feel our palms sweat and our senses heighten. Option two, the parasympathetic nervous system response, occurs when our brains have determined that it isn''t safe to fight back or run away. Our bodies release acetylcholine, a chemical that slows down the heart rate and takes us into the survival responses of submit, attach, or hypofreeze (freeze with little to no stress hormone in our body). We can submit to the threat by seeming to ignore it or by laughing it off. We can attach, which is our people-pleasing or codependent response of needing to stay connected at all costs to the person who has hurt us. This typically occurs when the harm comes from within a major relationship in our life-a parent, a partner, a friend, or a boss. Hypofreezing in place may sound like the hyperfreeze induced by adrenaline, but in this case, we typically feel tired, numb, and dissociated-the sensation of being outside of your own body.
It''s important to note that both these nervous systems are not only responsible for survival responses. The parasympathetic nervous system allows us to relax and feel calm, to enter our rest-and-digest state, which is when our body feels safe enough to recharge and to perform some basic functions that get put on hold during stress or trauma. The sympathetic branch, when activated in safe scenarios, is responsible for excitement, motivation, and nervousness over a hot date or a momentous event. YOUR TURN When you feel threatened, does your body respond with a sympathetic nervous system response? What triggers you into fight-or-flight mode? When it happens, what do you notice in your body? What about a parasympathetic nervous system response? Do you have a default option when triggered or overwhelmed, or does it depend on the scenario? Or do you experience both, and if so, what does that look like for you? Take some time to reflect on how your unique nervous system keeps you safe. The Roots of Your Trauma Response Recognizing trauma as the root of people''s day-to-day unhappiness or anxiety also helps us to depathologize ourselves and one another. Our culture has some pretty judgmental and problematic beliefs about mental health. When we include trauma in the larger conversation about mental health, we create more compassion and understanding for more people. One often-overlooked cause of trauma is chronic stress.
Jessy certainly suffered from chronic stress. Many of us in the margins do. She also suffered from chronic illness, which is another often-unrecognized source of trauma. Other root causes of trauma arose before we were born-and reside in our genes. Stress Most of my clients experience daily stress-worry and mental tension-in their lives, ranging from worry over lack of access to resources, to relationships, to our political and climate reality, to existing in bodies that are seen as less worthy of basic human rights. Our body''s neurochemical response to stress is similar to its response to trauma, releasing a flood of adrenaline and cortisol that puts us into fight-or-flight mode or triggers other nervous system responses to perceived danger. Sometimes stress itself is also traumatic, meaning it leaves a lasting impact on our ability to feel safe in the world and connected to others. Stress can limit our ability to get the resources and safety we need in life, even as the lack of resources and safety is the source of stress, creating a vicious cycle.
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